Yoga for a Broken Heart by Michelle Paisley

Author:Michelle Paisley
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Inner Traditions/Bear & Company
Published: 2012-04-20T04:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 9

Allowing for Answers

Tonight is my birthday eve. My birthday celebrations usually last about a week. And since the tattoo idea didn’t work out exactly as planned, I went to a psychic with my aforementioned friend with the amazing capacity to forgive. We drove an hour and a half through the country, not sure what the heck we were doing and not sure if we should spend the money, but felt compelled to do so anyway, for some answers.

Well, it was indeed worth the money. I got my answers. In a nutshell, the reunion guy was just a lesson, not a life partner (I knew it); I needed to get away to the beach to heal and let my new teacher trainees fly solo, even if they’re still green. I need to file my damn divorce papers once and for all, and when I do, all kinds of wonderful stuff is going to happen. If I stay on this spiritual path, I will meet my soul mate in four – five months, but if I don’t ‘do the work’, if I don’t own my power and face the conflict, the mess of my divorce, I will put off my soul mate for another year or longer, and he won’t be happy.

This all rings true to me, and tonight’s yoga class made my heart sing. I felt like crying, and I never cry when I teach yoga, only when I am the student. In bridge pose, my heart opened three sizes, like the Grinch after he learned his lesson. I saw a bright green colour radiating from my chest, and blue, too, in my throat chakra, the chakra of truth and self-expression. I have never had my heart feel that open before, that expanded, and it felt great, really great.

I came home to a project my ex-husband was working on: a vegetable garden plot in our backyard. He was so proud, and then so disappointed when I didn’t hug him, just told him a sincere thank you. I know he wants more, and he is just going to hang on for dear life to our marriage, which in my mind has been dead in the water for some time. I feel compassion for him, I do, but that is all. It is over, and I need to deal with the mess, to move forward. There is going to be no easy way out of it, and I have been putting it off for weeks now.

The psychic said it’s easier to move through hell when you know heaven, your bliss, is on the other side. I feel she is right, on a deep cellular level, and all is good. Happy birthday to me.

My lessons are coming fast and furious. I am being tested, that I know for sure. The last few weeks have been a tsunami of emotion, and I am the surfer riding the crazy waves. I can do this. I read a verse from the Bhagavad Gita early this morning – really early, couldn’t sleep – like I try to do each morning.

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